Going nowhere fast...

Sorry I've been a little MIA from the blogging world of late. Real life is busy, yo! The weather has been so nice here and I've been pretty occupied with school, church activities and other things.

I've been getting a few questions lately about how the whole querying thing is going lately. Um, read the post title, please! Yeah, nowhere...fast. I've sent out ten new queries in the past two weeks with my new title and tweaked query. I have yet to hear back from any of those agents, so we'll just have to keep waiting.

Now that it's been a full four months since I've started this process, I've had a lot of time to reflect upon what it feels like to not make it. To not have your dreams come true. What can I say? Some days are hard, some aren't. Part of me knows that if this book doesn't make it, I will try again. I probably will never stop trying. Simply because I love writing too much to not try and publish. But then again, if it doesn't happen, I haven't failed. There are so many other things in my life that are just as important, okay, more important than publishing.

Being a good wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend. All of these things are things I should be focusing on as well. Rather than getting caught up in who I am not, I need to be happy with who I am right now. And if that means being Cacey Hopper, unpublished, stay-at-home-mom, then so be it.

Besides, I love writing. I hate this whole querying process. Sometimes I think I'd be much happier without it. But then again, I can't not try. So this leaves me and impasse, I guess.

There are so many days where I feel like it's one rejection after another. On those days it's good to remind myself of how lucky I already am. 99% of my life is already everything I ever wanted it to be. I can't complain.



"And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know that I am
I am, I am the luckiest" - Ben Folds Five, the Luckiest